We’re all guilty of using the phrase, “new year, new me,” and this year I’m not even going to try with that mess. I’ve tried sticking to workout regiments, fads, and meditation. The only one that truly lasted was meditation.
This year, I’m not trying to stick to a resolution. This year, I’m putting myself first.
Don’t get me wrong, my son will always come first, but this year, I really want to focus on myself. Not many people know this, but in the past few years, I have struggled with anxiety to the point of literally losing handfuls of hair. To this day, I’m still recovering from stress-related alopecia. I stopped taking photos with my family, I stopped jumping into photographs and I’ve purposely told my husband to not post certain pictures because you could see my bald spots.
Finding My Fearlessness Again
This year, I want to let all that stress and anxiety go. My goal for this year is to be that fearless woman I used to be.
I don’t want to label this goal as a resolution because I feel like it might take longer than a year to get back to where I used to be. It’s more of an in between long- and short-term goal for this year and years to come.
Hot Mess Mom
I like to joke with my friends that I’m your typical “Hot Mess Mom.” I show up late, have my hair in a cap, or look a mess. The truth is that, lately I haven’t wanted to leave my house because of my appearance. I wanted to stay home and not let anyone see what I was going through.
The only reason I showed up is because I love everyone who invited me out, and I know that even if they saw me with bald spots, they probably wouldn’t even mind. If anything, they’d want to help.
So while it’s not a resolution, in 2018 I resolve to be the same me — but not the me from these past few years. I resolve to be the me that I was the for majority of my life.
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